Eternal.Darkness

Friday, January 27, 2006

happy chinese new year to all you who celebrate it. cause i probably won't update for a while. cna't be bothered

finally the long weekend is here. better enjoy it while i can. according to my trusty Tampines GRC calendar, there'll be no more holidays all the way till march. ugh. a month without holidays. how crap is that.

and of all times to more or less fall sick. probably flu again. shouldn't have gone for training. now i feel completely lethargic and just needing to sleep forever and ever. thank goodness for panadol. saved me this afternoon.

ooh but after training was interesting. free shows like song sticking duct tape to the inside of singh's pants, in the hopes of maybe exfoliating him. fahrul and aaron couldn't be bothered with subtleties, so they basically just chased singh around the whole delta complex. haha

so this week has been fairly uneventful. school is becoming completely slack. my class (and a few other classes) are becomign jamming studios, especially my class. as of today we had 2 classical and 2 acoustic guitars. now all we need is a drum set and we can have a 5.4 band. whee

i've just realised that i use the word 'so' quite often in my posts. very good

oh, and good job theodore. one day i might decide to do it as well. another two years wouldn't hurt. i've already been through a year and a half

i'm exhausted. i have no idea what to put here. everything that needs to be said, has been said. oh wait. not quite....

so another week has passed. yet it's been no different. nothing has changed. the situation is still as it stands. no wait. that's not completely true. there's definitely been some change. outside school you can talk to me perfectly normally, yet you never even say hi in the corridor. is it that difficult? am i such a lowly person as to not warrant even a greeting from you? well i guess there's nothing i can do about it. it's all up to you. i've done what i can. now for you to realise the truth.

Aizat looked up at 10:21 PM

Monday, January 23, 2006

chamber is fun. especially reading sessions. cause screwing up in a reading session is more or less normal. i want another reading session! should have them more often. once a month is so not enoguh.

so i was in school on saturday from 830 am to 10PM. i'm mad. i spend more time in school than at home. wth. but the reading session was worth it. wheee. beethoven's 7th symphony is a funky piece. i wanna play it again.

then tan kang ming decided to promote himself by announcing that he was having a show tomorrow (sunday, which was yesterday. anyway). the main thing that appealed to me was... it's free!!! i mean, how many times do you get to watch a concert at VCH for free.

but apparently it didn't appeal to the others. as of that night, only chen jie was going. so then the next morning i figured, ah wth, jsut go and see what it's like. it's free after all. then found out zab was going. so that made three people. wonderful.

so i made my way there after having programme comm meeting in school. (take note: this means i was in school every single day of the last one week). thought i was late. and of all people to meet there, i chanced upon sean low waiting on the steps of VCH. apparently zab had asked him to go. so there were 4 of us. yay. but zab was late. haha. traffic jam. so we missed like the first few minutes of the show. it was ok i guess. didn't like the ravel very much. wayy too dissonant. come to think of it, the franck wasn't much different either, what with 'turbulent emotions' and stuff.

so then three of us (minus chenjie. dunno where he disappeared to) decided to go eat at esplanade. since there was only one restaurant there where i could eat, they agreed to go there. and had a nice (though expensive) dinner. then watched a bit of one of the free shows, which had a crappy band playing. and then we went for ICE CREAM!!! at haagen-daz. muahahahaha. me and slow kept on tempting zab until she finally gave in. so we ordered this monster fondue. complete with melted chocolate and everything. wheeee!!!! then realised that there was school the next day. so we went home.

so now the homework is really starting to flow in. and i have officially fallen asleep for the first time this year. and it just so happens to be.... chem. again. but well. there's still time to make up.

so we finally met our math teacher, mr ng yew hong, who basically told us his life story. the only thing he didn't say was where he was born. and he seemed to be telling us that everything he does is pointless. not pointless as in there's no point, but pointless as in 'it's open-ended'. i'll leave you to ponder on that.

anyway, he has this funky website for the math students. on it is probably gonna be our homework or whatever, but so far the only things that are there are a survey and a personality test. the survey is full of funky trick questions. but the personality test is unlike anything i've ever done before. so it has classified me as an INFP:

Introverted iNtuitive Feeling Perceiving

well here's the description for what an INFP is. take your time reading it. i'm too lazy to bother=P

then again i'll just post the link here.

http://typelogic.com/infp.html

there. another nice long entry to sink your teeth into.

Aizat looked up at 7:39 PM

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

so after a long hibernation period (hey it's monsoon season after all. the closest we'll get to winter), i'm back to pump some life into this shit hole. back by popular demand (well, two will be counted as popular, considering a grand total of 3 people have been here in recent months), i'll update.

orientation was funnnn. haven't had that much fun since..... damn i don't think i've ever had that much fun anytime recently. except maybe kluang. but kluang was slack compared to this. congratulations to the crew for a successful and well run orientation, even though it was your first and a first for the entire school. good job guys!

and to Orientation Group 2: the CRUNBLERZ!!! thanks for being a great group, for being very on for everything and putting up with me for the whole week. thanks to the guys: nat ong, clement tan, bank, mark chua, tan jun wei, shivana, ronald ip, jordan tan, chan zheng hao (whenever you turned up), chris cheong, joel ong and jia qing. and to the three girls, zabrina, victoria and clarissa, thanks for letting us bury you =P. and not to forget my partner OGL: shreya mohta, even if you did abandon us during the acsiting race (jkjk). thank you all for making the orientation the best that it could be.

so then came the bridging week, full of random lectures. another good period of time wasting. the best of course was on friday, when we the champions taking malay b effectively had about two hours free period. well, there was 'lesson', but didn't really matter much to us. and in that one week, the year 5 guys played more football together than we are likely to play for the rest of the semester. well, the school does encourage friendships and bonding, so what better way than football?

bridging finally came to an end (fortunately and unfortunately) on monday, and yesterday we had what was effectively our first proper lessons of the year. most importantly we were introduced to the subjects and the teachers. actually i think the teachers are more important. so i can safely say that a couple of my subjects should be secure, but the other subjects leave much to be desired.

as to my class, we were involuntarily thrown about last week, during the bridging course. (to any 5.4 classmates reading this, please forgive me. i'm just being honest). when i first entered the class i completely hated it. i saw a class of half ex-GEPs. i won't comment on the teachers, especially with all the recent reports on bloggers and stuff. but i hated the class. i hated whoever put me there. i wanted out so much. at that point i would have done anything just to get out of the class. especially since i had been moved from what seemed to be the perfect class of 5.13 Ecclesiastes (YES! i can spell the class name!). i wanted to go back there.

but i guess God as a purpose for everything that happens. as it turned out, a few days later all the class were reshuffled yet again, and it seemed that those between 5.6 and 5.15 were completely messed up. at this point i still resented my class, so naturally i was pissed off when there didn't seem to be any change at all to my class. and suddenly the next door class of 5.3, which would come to be known as the monastery for its lack of girls, seemed like the perfect class. i knew almost everyone in that class, compared to 5.4 where i barely knew half of them.

again i wanted out of 5.4 so much. but it was not to be. for better or for worse i was stuck with this class.

ok now i really must apologise to those classmates who read this. you guys (and girls) have proven to be a fairly fun loving class, contrary to what i believed. there's nothing much i can say about you all, other than that i'm sure we're going to thoroughly enjoy each others' company for the next two years. NUMBERS FOREVER!!!

so yeah. now everyone is up to date (everyone being kink, ethan, and maybe sean low). and my leg is killing me again. thank you song yun for giving me this beautiful bruise right above my ankle.

and our first chamber rehearsal for the year proved to be an... interesting one. we were all basically sight reading the thing. the first piece wasn't too bad, but we more or less died many times over during the waltz thingie (why are we always doing waltzes?).

so here you are. a nice long update after a nice long wait.

i see you around everyday. i've known you for long enough. you're just across the level. but it seems like a million miles away. there's nothing i can do to get closer, because the walls have ears. too many would know.

yet you stole my heart. without even knowing it. now whenever i see you i can't help but look at you and wonder, will you ever notice me? will i ever be part of your life? or am i destined to just while away the days wondering, what life would be like had you accepted me. there's nothing that can be done now. nothing but to wait, and see where life takes you and me...

you may know who you are if you read this, which i doubt. but if you do, please, please, let me know. i want to know so much. will you be mine?

Aizat looked up at 9:35 PM