Eternal.Darkness

Monday, October 30, 2006

so there is more to you than can just be seen. but now, as i hear more and more, i question even more. see this is why i can do well, but not spectacularly well, for tok. i question everything, but i never seem to be able to find the answers to anything. and just when i think that i'm close to discovering something, a whole new set of circumstances presents itself that sets me on yet another long chase of discovery, and sometimes i wonder whether it's just a wild goose chase which will never end.

right now the questions revolve somewhat around the situation, but even more so i'm questioning myself. who am i? what right do i have to this unique person that is me? i mean, okay i have a different name and a different face from everyone. but so what? what is it about it me that would really set me apart? what's something i can do, something that i have, that is different from others, that i've not been born with? am i simply a jack of all trades, going through life's motions? i can't name anyhting about myself that is special. everything i do, there are other people i know personally, that are as able or even better than me at doing such things.

all these questions are running through my head right now, and they are seriously not helping the situation as it stands. i really really need to do something if i want this sorted out. but what? what can i do?

maybe i'll open this out, reluctant as i am, to the rest of the pitifully small world that reads this whining.

if you wanted to win over a guy/girl, yet that person may already have eyes on someone else, and you likely have nothing majorly special, what would you do? would you still go ahead and try anyway? if so, why? if there's no space in the tag board then use the comments section. anyone can answer this.

Aizat looked up at 8:36 PM

Sunday, October 29, 2006

who are you? who is this person that no one wants to talk about, that seems perfect on the outside but with what appears to be so much more behind that

and another thing. am i really that ignorant of everything around me? why do i always end up being the last person to know about anything, by which time it'll probably be far too late.

what the hell la

Aizat looked up at 5:12 PM

Friday, October 27, 2006

okay it's been quite a while. a lot has happened. but nothing worth telling about. i'm promoted (whee), but that's about it. oh, but something has happened. i finally know what i'm doing for my EE. how cool is that. didn't think it'd be this early though. oh well

next year my class is 6.4 CANA. what kind of name is CANA. ok i know the significance of it, but still, imagine putting that on the class tshirt (and then imagine a picture of pile of shit below it). anyway

yesterday was the oktober feast. some level thingie organised by the council. for the year 5s as an end of year thing. it was quite fun i guess. and the turnout was good, considering they anticipated only half the level turning up (but as someone said, if the dota gang found time to turnup, that probably would mean that most everyone would turn up). food was okay. and i made a new friend (i think) in rong xin.

it goes like this. the two geniuses ashok and anjan had a segment of the show to themselves. to do basicall whatever they wanted. so they decided to have a solo dance showdown (though it was danesh and shrey who won) and a couple dance showdown. long story short, i got called for the couple dance (the whole bloody thing was rigged. damned indians) and despite having been called to dance with someone else, she decided to dance with marcus lim. so i chose rong xin. and what a stroke of luck that turned out to be, for unknowing to me, rong xin is a school dancer, and between the two of us, we managed to steal the show. haha. though i'm pretty sure she's a lot a lot better than me. (considering i got pwned before i even started. haha). so yea.

remind me never to dance on a granite floor. i've discovered that it can cut your skin right through your clothes, without a single tear in your clothing.

xinhui you can be unbelievably frustrating. =P

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