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Eternal.Darkness
Saturday, March 18, 2006
i have discovered that the beach is a very good place to train football, especially when it comes to drop-kicking and goalie training. simply because there is so much space. it also helps with dribbling practice because you have hell trying to just move in the sand. most of all when you're playing barefoot.

ok i'm quite sian. i'll continue this post later. maybe.



Aizat looked up at 6:58 PM

Friday, March 17, 2006
Ronin - One More Moment

Don't take too long to say i love you
to the ones you love
cause time has a habit
of slipping away....

And out on a clear blue sky
when lightning strikes on a sunny day
just take me in
and keep me from the rain....

And the words that seem so hard to say
come out when you've gone away
Just stay a little while
and here me say....

That i want you here tonight
and i need you by my side
for just one more moment,
for just one more moment with you

Turn away and say goodbye
with each and every word
that passes by
like a distant memory....

And time keeps slipping away
and time will turn to grey
and time will be
the one who holds you down....

And the words that seem so hard to say
come out when you've gone away
Just stay a little while
and here me say....

And i want you here tonight
and i need you by my side
for just one more moment,
for just one more moment with you

And i want you here tonight
and i need you by my side
for just one more moment,
for just one more moment with you

But sometimes time will treat you bad
before you even know what's wrong
And in the end it hits you hard
Please tell me you'll be strong

(Solo)

Sometimes time will treat you bad
before you even know what's wrong
And in the end it hits you hard
Please tell me you'll be strong

Na-na-na-na-na....

beautiful song. thanks to jon lui for rekindling my love for this song. it perfectly expresses my thoughts right now.

for those of you who have never heard ronin, i suggest you do so soon. for those who have, but haven't heard this song, you can get it at

http://www.roninriot.com/media.htm

for free! enjoy.



Aizat looked up at 4:04 PM

Wednesday, March 15, 2006
how life sucks when everything seems to be going wrong for you. but worse is when you think everything's going perfectly fine, then you see something or something happens that completely dampens and spoils your mood. i don't know why i'm so susceptible to crap like this.

so 'chamber workshop' has ended. and on a bad note, i have to say. we three cellists had major problems with that stupid funeral song thing. don't know what the hell is wrong with the guy, can't even stick to one time signature the whole damn piece. so we kept screwing up until conductor got pissed off and left early. wtf la. so we continued attempting to play the piece. not like we made much progress. gah. see la. first thing in the morning already everything going wrong. well thanks to carl ame and zab for trying (vainly) to help us out, even though you probably wasted all your freakin time. i don't think it's a problem with anyone else. it's just us. we'll figure it out. somehow. don't we always.

then had the rehearsal for centerstage. which actually went quite well. and suddenly we have this influx of swat members, till we had seven people in my team and 6 people in jeff's team, for a grand total of 13, including michelle and tina. this is even more than there were in blinded. which is good. i think.

the script is good. it's funny, lame and retarded, without being too slapstick. shawn ang, yao wen and darren chew are gonna steal the show. the best gang members ever seen on the cpa stage, even better than (i'm sorry to say) the tau huay gang. ah well. so that went well.

and now i'm home, first thing i do (after showering turning on com etc etc etc) is reading peoples' blogs. for fun. cause i'm so sian. then i see something. and i get depressed. again. and once again i question. i don't know who my friends are anymore. i know there are some out there, but the ones that i want as friends, are growing ever distant.

it's too late. ah fuck it all.



Aizat looked up at 7:18 PM

Tuesday, March 14, 2006
ok this isn't exactly an update, but more of something to think about. because for me, it's now completely spoiled my mood.

it has just dawned on me, that we all have roughly two years left to be teenagers. after that it's NS, university and then the world. do you know how much that sucks. two years left!!!

teenage years are the best of your life. hardly a care in life, your path (usually) laid out before you. all you have to do is follow that path, clear any hurdles along the way, and work towards a single goal. life is so simple at this stage.

if you think that your life is stressful now, wait till you get to the working world. there, you'll have no path before you (unless you're working for shell), where every day, every hour, every minute can mean a change that will completely alter your lifestyle. for those of you who've watched Fun With Dick And Jane, take a lesson from it. the working life sucks. so don't think that working life = rolling around in money. you'll have to bust your ass just to make sure that you have a chance at rolling around in money. and even that's not guaranteed.

why'd i start thinking about this crap. now i'm completely depressed. yuck.



Aizat looked up at 6:16 PM

Monday, March 13, 2006
zZzZzZzZzZz.... wha what. huh what's that you said. no you're kidding. can't be. first of all doesn't feel like it. secondly it's too early. what's that? you're dead serious? haiz. must be then.

so the holidays are here. despite being one week. a welcome respite from the rigours of daily school life. but it really does not feel like holidays. there's so much work to do. the only relief i have is the chance to get more than 4 hours of sleep a night. ah lovely bed.

anyway.

one week of track runs finally over. let's see what happened at each one:

Monday 6/3/2006 - 100m heats Open Boys.

a lot of people ran for this. so much so that there were originally three heats, with about seven people each heat, for a total of 21 runners. 21!!! but being typical ACS boys, just under half failed to turn up and were disqualified. yay. so three heats became two. and thankfully i was in the second heat. with the not-so-crazy runners, people like chris chua, bose, kenneth lui, jun wei and eggy. the only mad dog in our heat was ben chia, who naturally won.

but they screwed up the names, so it ended up that jonathan tay (aka mousy) was in the finals, which shouldn't be, considering he didn't even run the race. so yeah. but more significantly, i'm in the finals!!! for our heat we had this massive jumble at the end, like everyone came in almost on par: me chris chua and kenneth lui were like within 0.1 seconds of each other, with bose just slightly behind. so three of us qualified and bose didn't. ah well. so the 8 in the finals are:

me, chris chua, kenneth lui, matthew mun, zhi yuan, ben chia, kiat, and some other guy can't remember who. and so we'll be running our asses off on finals day. too bad mousy didn't really qualify. then i won't be last =P

Thursday 9/3/2006 - 4 x 400m inter house relay Open Boys

this was one of my most indecisive days, when i was torn between joining my class at sentosa and running for the house. how i hate the feeling of having to choose between two loyalties. and i can be sure that this will not be the last time. not by a long shot

so in the end, i stayed with my house. my longer-standing loyalty to GHK finally won through, so the relay team on that day was me, mun, ethan and leon, against some crazy dogs from other houses. we really could have gotten something from the race. in order of running was leon, ethan, me and mun. or was it ethan, then leon. something like that. ah well. we did well for the race. between the first three of us we kept up a more or less second or third placing throughout the race. unfortunately mun's muscles weren't up to the strain.

no i'm not blaming him. it's not his fault we were last. on the contrary, i salute him for even running, knowing the condition his legs were in. and it doesn't matter our position. we all know in our hearts taht we would have gotten at least third, and that's good enough for us. personally i have earned the genuine respect of some of the other runners, after what i consider to be one of my best 400m sprints of all time. that's what matter the most. and that's what i'll remember most from this race.

Friday 10/3/2006 - 110m Hurdles Open Boys, 400m Hurdles Open Boys

ok so this was the day i was looking forward too, but i also dreaded it a fair amount, because i hadn't done hurdles since last year's track finals. so i was worried as well. but i didn't let that spoil my day, because friday was also second orientation! ok so it wasn't as long as the original, nor did it have the stuff that is normally associated with orientations, but there's no denying that it was funnnn. especially the wet games later in the day. to bad everyone ponned it. the ice bath owned all. i want another one! woot. and the best scene was seeing (and hearing all too clearly) cherie scream when it was her turn. the second her toe touched it, i had to cover my ears. well it doesn't help that i'm sensitive to sharp sounds (and these include girls screaming). but it was fun. oh, and seeing how many times fong got dunked. haha.

ok enough of that. but i'd rather not talk too much about the hurdle runs. i'm not too proud of them, especially the 400m one. i didn't expect much for the 110m hurdles, but i did want something from the 400. i did get my wish, although not in the way i wanted it. i want a medal, but i want to earn it. i don't want to get it simply because there were no other runners. and i really wasn't proud of my run, especially after my good one the previous day. i need to train more. and get used to the height of the hurdles. and work my jumping.

so i got a bronze for 400. but i don't feel i should get it. i could have walked the thing and gotten bronze. a race is only a race if there are more people than there are prizes, because then there is an actual competition to see who really deserves the medals. my only consolation is that i wasn't that far behind tim chan. compared to when i ran last year against those dogs who go by the names of ruzaini, navin and raymond. scoundrels.

so that's it. and now it's the holidays. chamber for the first three days. why not for the rest of the week. chamber is fun. otherwise i'm spending too much time at home. and someone is sick. quite badly, from what i can see. someone should take care of someone's self. otherwise someone's gonna get even sicker. and holidays are not a good time to fall sick. holidays are to be enjoyed (as far as possible). not to be spent lying in bed. i'm not gonna say who someone is. those who need to know already know. those who don't know. don't need to know.

ok i didn't expect this post to be this long, but nehmine. it's done. now to continue my fifa manager legend.

ciao



Aizat looked up at 8:14 PM

Monday, March 06, 2006
stiffphen and tongkat ali. kings of greatshow 2006. =P

whee gangshow has finally ended. after months of preparation. and despite a few minor setbacks and technical difficulties, it was a great show *applause*. haha. so now the bar has been raised. we were "daring" enough to carry this out, and the gamble pulled off. it was one of the best shows ever, and many people agree to it. including our district people. who want a show next year.

good luck daniel yeang. haha.


and our dance was perfect. the audience loved it. slapstick meets cool. we started with this retarded dance that dom taught us, which was in fact adapted (but mostly unchanged) from the PJC fun dance. then we changed song to our all time favourite - Larger Than Life. that song means a lot to us. it was what can be considered our 'baptism of fire', the first dance we ever did in front of a full audience, at st.margarets secondary school, all those years ago. we were just beginning to dance back then. we were noobs back then.

now we are rightunders. reformed. the revelation dance crew. and we made sure those scouts and guides would remember us for time to come.

oh, and apparently one of the district guys came over after the RV campfire, which was being conducted simultaneously, and apparently he wasn't too happy with it. score one for greatshow '06.

so that's the gangshow/greatshow. anyone want anymore details, just ask me.

today was the first day of the inter house track and field championships. and for the first time ever i'm running competitively in 100m sprint. at first i really wasn't too sure of my ability, because as far as i remember, the last time i had run 100m dash was in....sec....1. so yea. a bit the lack of confidence.

but it turned out okay. in fact turned out better than expected. well. okay i'll be honest. i completely wasn't ready for what came. apparently i'm in the final 8 for 100m. they screwed up the timings and placings, but a bit late to change anything. so i'm stuck in the finals. which means i'm running 4 events on the day: inter house relay, inter class relay, inter cca relay, and now 100m sprint. great.

at least i know i won't be last. cause mousy is somehow in the finals as well. even though he didn't run. so a ray of hope at last.

now to await hurdles. i really hope i can get a result for it, because it's been my main event over the last four years, but the prospects don't look good. so far as i know, i'm running against people like zhi yuan, fahrul, singh, jj, tp etc - all of which could trash me on any given day of the week. not good. ah well. nehmine. just whack.

so my secret is finally out. didn't think it would be this fast. but well. what to do. a bit late to change anything. now you know. and i'm pretty sure others know. or at least 'suspect'. and they question. right. i'll bet you've told everything to everyone you know.

honestly, now that i think about it, i don't really care. i don't care how many people know. i don't care if the whole world knows. everyone can know it. but what's more important is that you know it. because now i can see whether you would accept me or not. and so it seems that you won't.

i want so much for you to be in my life. but i see that it's impossible now. especially since he's around you more than ever. i wish it hadn't been him. of all people. couldn't it have been someone else. but no. it had to be him. of course he's the coolest guy around, but still... i wish... for a lot of things to happen right now. but there's still one thing i wish for above all

if i had a wish, it would be to have no reason to make one. and all that is needed is you.



Aizat looked up at 8:25 PM

AizaT
15*02*1989
(go figure my age)
ACS (I)
4.16 Enoch in '05
5.4 Numbers (Staplets?) in '06
Venture Scout
Break dancer in training
Plays Hockey
Plays Football
Plays the Cello
Wants to learn Violin
Wants to learn Flute/Clarinet



.W.I.S.H.E.S.

-an electric guitar
-lots of sleep
-a new phone
-a bag which i can use for rough wear (i.e. i can afford to destroy it)
-an mp3 player
-a true friend

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You are Gambit! You are a fierce fighter and a good friend to have.
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