Monday, October 30, 2006
so there is more to you than can just be seen. but now, as i hear more and more, i question even more. see this is why i can do well, but not spectacularly well, for tok. i question everything, but i never seem to be able to find the answers to anything. and just when i think that i'm close to discovering something, a whole new set of circumstances presents itself that sets me on yet another long chase of discovery, and sometimes i wonder whether it's just a wild goose chase which will never end.
right now the questions revolve somewhat around the situation, but even more so i'm questioning myself. who am i? what right do i have to this unique person that is me? i mean, okay i have a different name and a different face from everyone. but so what? what is it about it me that would really set me apart? what's something i can do, something that i have, that is different from others, that i've not been born with? am i simply a jack of all trades, going through life's motions? i can't name anyhting about myself that is special. everything i do, there are other people i know personally, that are as able or even better than me at doing such things.
all these questions are running through my head right now, and they are seriously not helping the situation as it stands. i really really need to do something if i want this sorted out. but what? what can i do?
maybe i'll open this out, reluctant as i am, to the rest of the pitifully small world that reads this whining.
if you wanted to win over a guy/girl, yet that person may already have eyes on someone else, and you likely have nothing majorly special, what would you do? would you still go ahead and try anyway? if so, why? if there's no space in the tag board then use the comments section. anyone can answer this.
looked up at 8:36 PM
(go figure my age)
4.16 Enoch in '05
5.4 Numbers (Staplets?) in '06
Break dancer in training
Plays the Cello
Wants to learn Violin
Wants to learn Flute/Clarinet