Eternal.Darkness

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

how life sucks when everything seems to be going wrong for you. but worse is when you think everything's going perfectly fine, then you see something or something happens that completely dampens and spoils your mood. i don't know why i'm so susceptible to crap like this.

so 'chamber workshop' has ended. and on a bad note, i have to say. we three cellists had major problems with that stupid funeral song thing. don't know what the hell is wrong with the guy, can't even stick to one time signature the whole damn piece. so we kept screwing up until conductor got pissed off and left early. wtf la. so we continued attempting to play the piece. not like we made much progress. gah. see la. first thing in the morning already everything going wrong. well thanks to carl ame and zab for trying (vainly) to help us out, even though you probably wasted all your freakin time. i don't think it's a problem with anyone else. it's just us. we'll figure it out. somehow. don't we always.

then had the rehearsal for centerstage. which actually went quite well. and suddenly we have this influx of swat members, till we had seven people in my team and 6 people in jeff's team, for a grand total of 13, including michelle and tina. this is even more than there were in blinded. which is good. i think.

the script is good. it's funny, lame and retarded, without being too slapstick. shawn ang, yao wen and darren chew are gonna steal the show. the best gang members ever seen on the cpa stage, even better than (i'm sorry to say) the tau huay gang. ah well. so that went well.

and now i'm home, first thing i do (after showering turning on com etc etc etc) is reading peoples' blogs. for fun. cause i'm so sian. then i see something. and i get depressed. again. and once again i question. i don't know who my friends are anymore. i know there are some out there, but the ones that i want as friends, are growing ever distant.

it's too late. ah fuck it all.

Aizat looked up at 7:18 PM