Eternal.Darkness

Sunday, February 12, 2006

I GOT 6 POINTS FOR O LEVEL!!!!!

well it was for one subject only but....

I STILL GOT 6 POINTS FOR O LEVEL

with a lovely C6 for higher malay
nvm. i passed. i'm happy

so anyway. nothing much has happened since i was last here, a couple of weeks ago. school has been droning on and on, and i'm beginning to sleep in class again. not good. especially with the crappy teachers i have right now. c'mon marcus. start mugging already. or else we're doomed.

so anyway. the first phase of this term is over. common tests are coming up. and the interesting thing is, i don't really care. first of all, the school has done a very good job of somehow placing a lot of importance on the tests, yet at the same time making them seem completely mundane and pointless. strange how the school works. oh well. who am i to complain. i'm just a lowly ~~drone~~ student who has no choice but to follow what the school decides.

had an interesting PC lesson this week. so now it's become our mission, no, our duty, to take on the school and the teachers who claim to represent us among the upper echelons, yet are merely pawns in this game that the powers-that-be play with us. there are problems. plenty of them. we raise them up. somehow my teacher does an amazing job of talking about everything under the sun that is remotely connected to my question, yet somehow manages to avoid actually answering it. mind boggling. should use that for my EE topic. whee.

ok so i've just received word that the hockey team is through to the finals of the U-21 tournament tomorrow. and coincidentally (?) their opponents are the ORA - the Old Rafflesians Association, better known as ex-RI players. but we have a good chance of winning. well, considering that a bunch of barely-17 year olds manage to take on teams consisting of anyone up to 21 years of age, and going all the way to the finals, is no mean feat. so all the best to the ISC team that is our school team. i'll try and come down for the match.

and tonight. something happened which i will not discuss in detail. but it is a very good situation to see how i reacted to an.... accusation. and i am not proud to say that i reacted fairly poorly. i realise that i seem to be losing my temper all too easily these days. every little thing seems to cause me to flare up. this isn't good. but i'm not sure which is better. letting your emotion out at every possible opportunity, or keeping all that frustration and anger bottled up, and one day, something will just snap in you, resulting in all your emotion gushing forth in one swift motion.

i've experienced both in what little of this year has already passed. hmmm. maybe they're related. because my pent up anger finally blew recently. and i think it was then that i started my extreme moods, most damaging of all being my temper. i have to learn to control this. and i've heard it being said (or typed) that people are surprised by how i react to the situation. so something has to be done. i'm open to suggestions. those few who bother to read this junk, anything to offer?

Aizat looked up at 12:14 AM