Eternal.Darkness

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

just to clear things up. since it apparently isn't clear from my chatterbox, i have found that there is no difference between the kids' and adults' versions of the books. so stop bugging me. it gets irritating after a while.

but on a lighter note. yay people are actually bothering to read the crap i type here

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Monday, July 18, 2005

i'm bored so i'll update now. today had another practice for dance x (two more weeks!!!) and again we accomplished a lot. like some cheerleading stuff which sounds gay but is actually damn cool to look at. and RJC floor is as dusty as ever. and now my shoulder hurts cause i messed up a suicide roll. which means i'm not gonna do another one. as such. i probably won't do it for dance x itself. cause it hurts too much

i'm sure by now everyone knows that HP and the Half Blood Prince is out already. you see news reports about people queuing overnight. here's the thing. on my way to school yesterday, at about 9 in the morning, i stopped by tampines mall to see whether i had a shot at getting the book. and guess what. there was a total of like 10 people in the whole Popular bookstore, and the cashier was actually free of a queue. so i got my book with no fuss

as to the book. it's a great book. first of all, you can see that all the characters have grown up. and i think that this time, there's a difference between the children's and the adult's versions of the books. first of all. the adult's version (which i have) is full of everyone (yes, just about everyone) making out. now i seriously doubt that it will appear in the children's version because few would understand the meaning of 'snogging'.

other than that. the plot is full of twists. and there's a grave surprise in the ending chapters. no, harry hasn't died yet, or else there wouldn't be a book 7, but it's almost as bad. and the action sequences at the end are good as well. overall a 9.5 out of 10.

ok so i've updated. i'm now still recovering. so i'm kinda disoriented. i think i'll go take a nap.
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"Bacstreet Boys - Siberia"

When you come back I won't be here
She said and gently pulled me near
If you want to talk you can call
And no it's not your fault

I just smiled and said let go of me
But there's something that I've just gotta know
Did someone else steal my part?
She said it's not my fault

Then my heart did time in Siberia
Was waiting for the lie to come true
'Cause it's all so dark and mysterious
When the one you want doesn't want you too

I was drifted in between
Like I was on the outside looking in, yeah yeah
In my dreams you are still here
Like you've always been

Oh yeah, my heart did time in Siberia
Was waiting for the lie to come true
'Cause it's all so dark and mysterious
When the one you want doesn't want you too

I gave myself away completely
But you just couldn't see me
Though I was sleeping in your bed
'Cause someone else was on your mind
In your head

When I came back she wasn't there
Just a note left on the stairs
If you want to talk give me a call

My heart did time in Siberia
Was waiting for the lie to come true
'Cause it's all so dark and mysterious
When the one you want doesn't want you too
When the one that you want doesn't want you

My heart did time in Siberia
Was waiting for the lie to come true
'Cause it's all so dark and mysterious
When the one you want doesn't want you too

Siberia, Siberia
When the one you want doesn't want you too

Aizat looked up at 8:30 AM

Sunday, July 10, 2005

ok so here i am on a sunday afternoon (another wasted one) and i have nothing to do. i'm supposed to be adding the songs for our Minutes of Glory presentation (which i think is tomorrow) but due to some complications, i don't have a presentation to add songs to. so i've nothing to do. again.

the others just came back from vlc. venture leadership course. sounded like fun. should have gone. nvm. there's still next year. and all the cool people going next year. so not so bad.

i really have nothing to update. i'm just updating for the sake of updating. bleh

anyone want to go for rock wall climbing course?

and i'm still selling tickets for chamber night. fastly buy. fastly. and i mean. fastly

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to someone. i doubt you know who you are. i know who you are. but it's not enough. so i'll keep going. till i succeed.

i'll never stop

I don't know
Do you believe me, after all is said and done
All the lies, how i regret them baby now

I am the loser
And you're shining like the sun
Tell me why can't i still be your one
Alright...

I will never stop, until you're mine
I can wait forever till the end of time
Cause my heart is in your hands
Don't you understand
I'll never stop

I'll never stop

How could i ever, when my heart is in your hands
And i know, baby there is no turning back

You say that i'm crazy
And i kind of understand
How i wish for this nightmare to end
Alright...

I will never stop, until you're mine
I can wait forever till the end of time
Cause my heart is in your hands
Don't you understand
I'll never stop

Oooo....
Do you believe me
When my heart is in your hands
Don't you understand
I'll never stop

I will never stop, til the end of time (i'll be waiting)
Cause my heart is in your hands (my heart is in your hands)
Don't you understand

I will never stop, until you're mine
I can wait forever till the end of time
Cause my heart is in your hands
Don't you understand

I'll never stop

Aizat looked up at 5:08 PM

Monday, July 04, 2005

this must be some kind of record for me. 2 consecutive updates in 2 days. whooo....

today was another wasted day. spent the morning and early afternoon at RJC practising for DanceX. audition is this saturday. we don't know what time. we don't know where. but we'll find out. eventually. somehow. that's what we always do. so yeah

and to any rightunders reading this. let me tell you. the routine is just crazy. it's unlike anything you would've ever done. it's much more physically demanding than the gay crap we did last time. and it's hell to remember. man tomorrow my body's gonna hurt.

but i must say today's practise was much more productive than expected. normally, we would have learnt like about 32 beats worth of moves in one day. but today we practically finished learning the whole routine for most of the song. that's like.... at least 200+ beats. much much more than normal. whee. we actually got stuff done today.

then went to eat at pastamania, and heard some weird and.... interesting... stories which i shall not repeat. because they are just wrong. there was even a phone conversation right next to me that also sounded wrong. errr.

yay tomorrow's a holiday. it's Youth Day, and i've just realised that there's only gonna be a few more times i can celebrate Youth Day. just like children's day back in p school, which ended when we entered sec school. Youth Day will no longer apply to us after a while.

which set me thinking. i've realised, it's gonna be a crappy life when we grow up and start working. sure there's the freedom. but imagine the pressure you'd be under. the stress now is nothing compared to what you're gonna face next time. so i say to everyone reading this, who is under 18 and thinking you're under a lot of stress. enjoy life now. you only have one chance at living your youth. make the best of it. you won't get a second chance in life.

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Sunday, July 03, 2005

ok so here i am on a saturday evening slacking away. while trying not to think about the growing pile of work on my desk. because every time i do. it just spoils my mood. like right now. damnit.

first of all, i found that petrina's latest entry, which was like today, actually holds a lot of meaning for everyone. this is what school has become for us. it's like a mechanical system. day in, day out, it's the same routine, repeated week after week, no matter how much they try to change it so that it's not so monotonous

throw in a ton of work every week. and you get a cycle of work that keeps repeating itself every seven days. and it will never stop. until the exams. which is worse. or better, by your own view.

she's right. there's practically zero time to just sit down and take a break nowadays. especially when you have work to do, your mind will just stray to that work, no matter how hard you try to break away from its grasp. and in the end, you'll still end up doing it. that's the mindset that has been indoctrinated into us all. it's repeated so many times that we believe it now. 'you shouldn't procrastinate work. why do it later when you can do it now'. so because of that, we now end up losing all our time of enjoyment

this can't be the way. there has to be a way out of this.

this blog is dead

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jack of all trades. master of none. that is what i have become. i can do anything. but it always goes irreparably wrong. every time. so what am i now. i am nothing. i have nothing left. and there is nothing that can be done. no one can help me. not anymore. it's too late.

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